Monday, December 31, 2012

2012 Best Moments

Zoey 1st Christmas

Zoey's 1st candy bar, and Halloween
Zoey @ The Zoo

Zoey's Blessing Day April 8
Zoey being loved on by family 2.20.12

Zoey in my arms for the first time

Zoey in Daddy's arms
Best Moment: she has just entered the world and she let out a big cry and than was handed over to me.

***Best Moments*** 
  • we bought our first home
  • we had our 2nd daughter (who is one of best joys in our life)
  • we had our 4th wedding anniversary
  • we enjoyed being with family and friends this year.
***Happy New Year***

Thursday, November 22, 2012



    I'm so grateful for many things and I know I can't name them all but believe me I'm so grateful.  This year I have so much to be thankful for we moved into our first house we had our beautiful baby girl Zoey. So in tradition here comes my 10 things I'm grateful for.

  1. BRANDON- He is truly an amazing husband to me.  He has been here for me a lot this year he stayed over night in an uncomfortable hospital room not only 2 nights but 3 nights this year to be with me.  I rely on him so much and I don't know what I would do without him.  He is an amazing dad to our little girl.  I just love watching them play together.  I love to see the smile on his face when she is staring into his eyes and hearing her say "da da".
  2. OUR GIRLS- ZOEY- she is such a great joy and a wonderful blessing to us.  Each day we never take for granted this little girl.  We have enjoyed watching her grow. LEXY- for being our precious sweet angel and being a guardian angel to her little sister.  We love both of our daughters so much.
  3. FAMILY- this year we added three new babies into our family. Zoey, Declyn, and Savannah.  I love them all so much.  Our family is a one of a kind family and we love them oh so much.  This year I'm grateful for everything that has happened in my life I wouldn't change a thing because it has made me who I am.  I'm so very grateful to my family for being there for me when I needed them the most 2 years ago the day Lexy was born.  It was a sad day but I'm so glad that my family and friends were able to come and get me to smile and to laugh while I was holding her in my arms.  I'm so happy to know that Lexy knew my laughter, my voice, my heartbeat from inside and knows how much I love her.  I'm so grateful for little miss Zoey for being such a happy, loving baby who is getting bigger everyday and learning new things all the time.  Like saying mama and dada they are the best sounds to hear.  I'm grateful for my mom she has been such a wonderful mum.  I'm grateful for my sister Laura she is one of the kindest most loving person I know.  I'm so grateful that we have been able to be pregnant twice together.  When I was little I thought all my babies were going to be the youngest cousins in the family but they aren't they have cousins the same age I'm so grateful for that.
  4. OUR HOME- We moved into our home at the end of January and we have enjoyed having our own place.
  5. OUR JOBS- I'm so grateful to have a job that can provide for our family and have insurance.
  6. FRIENDS- we have some really great friends and were so thankful for them.
  7. OUR SAVIOR- He is so amazing and we are so grateful for His love.
  8. HEAVENLY FATHER- He is the reason we are so grateful for everything.
  9. SMILES AND LAUGHTER- life would just be so dull if you couldn't laugh and smile they are one of the greatest expressions.  I love walking into Zoey's room after she has been asleep and seeing the biggest smile on her face.  I love seeing Brandon smile at his little girl and at me.
  10. PEOPLE YOU HARDLY KNOW BUT THEY MAKE YOUR LIFE CHANGE: These last two years I have been taking my mom to Utah Valley Hospital to get her treatment.  In that time we have met such wonderful people with the biggest hearts and the positive attitudes.  This year I had only met him a couple of times but within those couple of times he had changed the way to view life.  He found out he had cancer a week before he came home from his mission.  He had an emergency surgery for his appendix  in a third world country and that is when they found tumors.  His story was an amazing story to hear.  You could feel how much he loved everyone.  We were with him for his last treatment and he said I'm going to go and enjoy the rest of my life I'm at peace.  Mom and I went to his memorial and for somebody that I only knew a couple of times I felt the amazing feeling of how he is in a better place and not in pain.  It was very clear how much he enjoyed his life hearing his best friend speak, his mission president speak, and his mom speak.  He only knew my name and I knew his and we shared stories when we were there and to me I'm so grateful to have only a couple of hours of knowing him but knowing that he helped me change.  So this year I'm grateful for getting to know him because he has been thought about at least once every week.  I remember to enjoy life to its fullest like he was able to.

Sunday, October 14, 2012

Getting so Big

I can't believe it our little Zoey is going to be 8 months old this month.  I can't believe that 8 months ago I was holding our little girl in our arms and just cuddling with her.  Zoey is no longer content just hanging out in our arms for more than 2 minutes at a time.  Zoey has learned that there is so much to learn.  Like trying new foods she started eating solids in August starting with rice cereal, than she started getting the really yummy stuff avocados, peas, butternut squash, sweet potato, carrots.  My favorite face she has pulled was with beef and broth.  We have only given her that meat once because while it is one cute face it is also not fun to eat something you don't like.  Zoey has also been learning that she can roll over and sit up.  Zoey does so well with both she is now learning how to crawl she tries to just move being flat against the floor, than she does an amazing push up.  So she is getting there.  Zoey has also learned some sounds and when she cries she says "mama" it breaks my heart because she is crying but and the same time it is so sweet to hear "mama" come out of her mouth.  Zoey also has learned how to say "BA" I don't know what that is yet but she says it quite a bit.  For daddy she yells "ah" well you got to hear it but I think she thinks it means daddy.  Daddy and Zoey have "ah" yelling matches at each other and she gets the biggest smile when he "ah's" back at her.  I also was able to teach Zoey how to blow raspberries and it makes me laugh when she tries to blow raspberries on her toys.

Wednesday, September 26, 2012


















First time in a cart

Can you believe this she is 7 months old and is growing up so quickly.  One day though I will be able to say that she sleeps through out the night she only gets up once through out the night and this is okay with me.  Every couple of days she will sleep through out the night but that is when I get the worse sleep because I wake up when she should wake up.  Well anyway Brandon and I are shopping for Halloween outfits no telling what we are going to be but we had fun looking today.  Well we were in Shopko and I just got done changing her and was going to put her back in the car seat. When she through a fit she sat straight up in her seat and clung onto the sides of the car seat. So I thought lets see how well she sits up in the cart. I moved the car seat and put her in it and as soon as she was sitting she was smiling.  Zoey did very well for her first time she clung onto the back with her little hands when she was feeling unsure that she could sit up.

Monday, September 24, 2012

Halloween Craft Party

Halloween Party with my Friends:

I want to see how many of my friends actually read my blog anymore.  I was thinking that it would be fun to get together for a pinterest Halloween craft night.  I would like to make some cute and fun decorations for Halloween this year.  If anyone is interested let me know I would like to do it in about 2 weeks.

Thursday, August 23, 2012

Happy 2nd Birthday

Brandon and I stayed up last night until 12:49am to be able to wish our little girl Happy Birthday.  While we were awake we were watching a movie.  My stomach started hurting I started getting cramps I could feel the pain of loosing my daughter all over again two years ago.  It made me hurt so much inside.  But the most amazing thing happened after 12:49 I felt my daughter in my arms again I felt the love that I have for her all over again.  I didn't like the feeling of the memories floating around last night but I got the best feeling.  I have been writing in my journal lately that I have been forgetting what it was like to hold little Lexy in my arms and last night I remembered how she felt in my arms and what an amazing daughter she is.

This morning when Zoey and I woke up we were playing with my phone.  Zoey started to grab my phone and I have had a picture of Lexy and I as the background for the last month.  Zoey than started her big smile and than kissed Lexy not once but three times.  Zoey is one lucky little girl she has an angel as a big sister who she know and loves.

Lexy's best friend Quinn is now two but don't worry Quinn hasn't forgotten her best friend yet either.  Laura was talking to Quinn a couple Saturdays ago.  Quinn was saying "mom, Woey's (Zoey) sister" with her arms in the where is she position. 

What a wonderful blessing our family has had with Lexy as our daughter, niece, cousin, granddaughter she taught us unconditional love in the short time that she was with us but she is still showing us unconditional love.

We love you little Lexy De'anna,, Lexy Beth, L.L. bean and all the other little nicknames you had we love you so much.


Wednesday, August 22, 2012

I won't give up

I have decided on a new favorite song of mine it is by Jason Mraz I Won't Give Up.  It is the wedding song for this season apparently.  Well I got to say coming up on my little Lexy's birthday.  I'm so glad that I had a husband who stayed by my side when we lost our little girl and didn't give up on us being a family.

Today I was singing to Zoey and having a blast she was smiling and cooing while I was singing to her.  I didn't know it but Brandon was standing in the door way watching us.  I'm so happy to have my little family of four.  I can feel Lexy around when our family is having fun, going through hard times.  I felt her in the room this afternoon as I was playing with Zoey I could hear her laughter.

I have been feeling like that I haven't been the best mommy to Zoey for a couple of weeks because I have been sad about Lexy.  But I got the reminder through this song by Jason Mraz that I can't give up on being a great mommy to Zoey even if I'm sad.  I felt as I was having fun a greater feeling of joy and love that Lexy would want for us.

I'm hurting over Lexy but I know that she is with our Father in Heaven and He is watching over her and everyone who misses her.  I know that my little angel is so busy.  I know she is an angel of love you could feel the love that she gave us while she was with us on earth.  I know that she is there for anyone that needs comfort or a great laugh.

If you haven't heard the song by Jason Mraz here it is:

"I Won't Give Up"

Hmmmm ... Hmmmm ... Hmmmm ... Hmmm ...

When I look into your eyes
It's like watching the night sky
Or a beautiful sunrise
Well, there's so much they hold
And just like them old stars
I see that you've come so far
To be right where you are
How old is your soul?

Well, I won't give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I'm giving you all my love
I'm still looking up

And when you're needing your space
To do some navigating
I'll be here patiently waiting
To see what you find

'Cause even the stars they burn
Some even fall to the earth
We've got a lot to learn
God knows we're worth it
No, I won't give up

I don't wanna be someone who walks away so easily
I'm here to stay and make the difference that I can make
Our differences they do a lot to teach us how to use
The tools and gifts we got yeah, we got a lot at stake
And in the end, you're still my friend at least we did intend
For us to work we didn't break, we didn't burn
We had to learn how to bend without the world caving in
I had to learn what I've got, and what I'm not
And who I am

I won't give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I'm giving you all my love
I'm still looking up
Still looking up.

I won't give up on us (no I'm not giving up)
God knows I'm tough enough (I am tough, I am loved)
We've got a lot to learn (we're alive, we are loved)
God knows we're worth it (and we're worth it)

I won't give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I'm giving you all my love
I'm still looking up

I love my little Lexy and my Zoey bug so much and am so grateful to be a mother and to have been trusted with two wonderful little spirits to be a mother to.

"'Cause even the stars they burn Some even fall to the earth We've got a lot to learn God knows we're worth it"

Saturday, July 7, 2012

love being a mom

this morning as i was playing with Zoey I couldn't help to remember that this was the day that i jumped for joy and cried at the same time a year ago.  i was pregnant we were pregnant again.  the next day i had the doctors appointment and than a week later an ultrasound for the pregnancy where we got to watch the cell divide.  I now have a baby who is trying to learn how to blow a raspberry, smiles, coos, and laughs.  I love her with all my heart and a little bit more everyday she reminds me of her sweet big sister Lexy and everyday i feel the love of being a mother times two.  I can't wait for the day that i will be able to teach Lexy everything that I'm teaching her little sister Zoey.  But for right now i get to love on my beautiful daughter Zoey and love her daddy to the moon and back.  I love our little family and I couldn't imagine anything else better.

Wednesday, June 13, 2012

115 years

Have you heard about Bibi and Poldi they have been together as a couple for 115 years.  After a 115 years together Poldi (the female) can't stand the sight of Bibi she has been attacking him.  They live in Australia at a zoo and have been together since they were young.  They use to be in love giving each other flirtatious looks across their enclosure they would hold their little flippers.  Now Poldi has bit off part of Bibi's shell.  The zoo keepers are trying to help them fall back in love.  I hope they fall back into love.  

Tuesday, May 22, 2012

4 Years

May 22, 2008

Wow! I cannot believe that it has been four years already I feel like I have been married to my been best friend for longer.  If you would of told me on May 22 of 2005 the day I graduated from Seminary that I would be getting married three years later on the same day.  I would of been shocked.  But instead on that date I drove to Mount Timpanogas got the feeling that I would be meeting my husband in the near future.  August 2, 2005 is the day i met Brandon and my life had changed.  Brandon went on a LDS mission I waited the 2 years.  After the waiting I became a Waite.  It has been a very wonderful 4 years and here is to another eternity.

Some things that has happened in the last 4 years of marriage:
  • We lived in Provo for a year and a half in two different apartments.
  • We lived in Pleasant Grove for two years and started our little family in Pleasant Grove.
  • We have two beautiful daughters Lexy and Zoey.
  • We bought a house!
  • We have been able to go through and still going through the trial of loosing our little Lexy and has made us stronger and hold on to each other.
  • We became parents to our little beautiful Zoey and are learning how to be parents daily.

Sunday, May 13, 2012

two girls


I love being a mom to this little girl she taught me so much in such a short time.  Lexy taught me a mothers love the second I saw her.   Lexy will always be the oldest sibling and watch over her little sister.  I love her and I'm so grateful to have her as my daughter.

I love being a mom to Lexy's little sister Zoey!  Zoey is teaching me so much about how to be a mommy.  It is hard work but it is so worth it when you see the smiles and the coos at midnight or 4am.

Tuesday, May 8, 2012

i did it

going back... Part 2

I cried she started crying when I left and I had to leave her while she was crying but at least her daddy was the one taking care of her.  I got into the SUV and I cried as I left the house.  It was so hard to leave little miss Z.  Little miss Z has been everywhere with me since last June and on Saturday it was the first time I left her for more than 8 hours and it was hard.  I called hubby a lot and asked how she was doing and if he was doing okay with taking care of her.  It was nice to get away for a little while.  But I sure did miss her.  On Sunday going back to work was a little bit easier.  But on Monday when I went to work she was wide awake and smiling hubby told me its like a band aid you just have to peel it off fast and go.  I cried when I left again because she was awake and happy.  It makes going to work so much easier knowing that little miss Z is with her dad and I'm not taking her to a daycare.  I did set up going back to work a little easier I only worked for 3 days and than my weekend and than once I go back I will have to be going for 5 days in a row.  So I could ease my way back into a normal work week.  I love being able to spend time with her right now and cuddle her and not have to worry about getting ready to leave the house to go to work.  Instead today when daddy gets out of school for the day we will get to do somethings as a family and it makes me happy.

hopefully by next year I will be able to stay home and be with my little girl.  but who knows what the future has ahead for us.

Saturday, May 5, 2012

going back...

I have had 11 weeks off of work and 10 of them have been spent spending time with my hubby, with little miss Zoey, family and friends.  We have had an adventure I have been learning how to the best mommy to this little girl everyday I learn something new.  I'm nervous about going back to work I have been on the midnight shift (9;45pm-6:15am) for two plus years.  I'm now going back and working from 1:30pm-10:00pm Thursday-Monday I have at least kept my same days off so that we can do family things on the weekend.  I have done this shift before I'm not nervous about that I'm nervous about meeting my new co-workers, meeting the individuals they are new to me.  I also am going to miss my midnight co-workers from Quail Run.  I also don't know how I'm going to do for 8+ hours without my little girl.  I have only stayed a couple of hours away from her.  I'm so happy that we don't have to pay anyone to take care of her and she will be with her daddy.  But I'm going to miss seeing her talk in the afternoons and the smiles she gives.

wish me luck!

Tuesday, March 20, 2012

Zoey {1st Month}

    Daddy and I love you very much and so happy that you have joined our family.  It is crazy to think that we were in the hospital with you a month ago just holding our little 5 pound 4 ounce baby and now today we are holding a 6 pound 8 ounce baby.  You are growing so much!  You have brought a lot of joy to our lives.  We love to watch you smile in your sleep and start seeing little smiles on your face while you are awake.  We have gone on walks, we have gone shopping, and we have been visiting family.  The kitty cats have decided that you are here to stay and starting to warm up to you.  Baylee has kissed the top of your head and KeKe loves to come up to you and rubs up against you.


Monday, March 5, 2012

Zoey's 2 week check up!

Zoey and I set off on an adventure today.  We had to go to Pleasant Grove for her two week check up.  We got to the doctors office early so that we could be ready for our actual appointment time.  The nurse had me undress little Zoey.  I have learned something this last week you don't let this girl go a minute after cleaning her bum without another diaper in the reach of you.  So I put on another clean diaper before the nurse goes to weigh her.  I follow and as soon as we get there she fills the pants.  Yes, I know what my daughters routine is.  The nurse weighs her and she is 5 pounds 8 ounces.  We head back into the little doctors office room.  I go to start cleaning her bum and I didn't have a clean diaper near me and guess what my little girl does?  Zoey peed all over the doctors office on the floor, on the patient bed/chair.  All after the final measure of her.  Last week she was 19 and a 1/2 now she is 19 so I'm going to stick with around 19 inches long.

Other fun facts about our little miss Zoey:
she lost her umbilical cord on Friday 3/2/2012
she gets up 3 to 4 times a night
she is a little piglet she loves to eat and you have to watch her closely to how much she over eats
she is very content when she is awake she just sits and watches you.
she looked at the pictures of LOVE YOU FOREVER while mommy cried reading it to her
she weighs 5 pounds 8 ounces and at birth she weighed 5 pounds 3 ounces
she makes noises while she sleeps like humming

and I thought I would share some photos of little miss Zoey's Birth.  Thank you to my best friend Janine for taking them they are truly amazing!

Friday February 17, 2012

Friday February 17, 2012

Friday February 17, 2012

while waiting for Dr. Willis

When everyone was laughing!!!

Here she comes with Aunt Laura right there

Zoey! 2:09pm February 20, 2012


Zoey crying!

Daddy cutting the umbilical cord

mommy seeing her for the first time

the amazing nurse!


I love little Zoey so much!

Zoey Margaret Waite

daddy holding her for the first time!

already wrapped around her little finger!


both of my loves!

so grateful she is here!

so grateful she is here!

Grandma Margaret holding her for the first time!

Grandma Margaret holding her little Zoey M!

Aunt Laura (La La) holding her after helping clean her off when she was born.

giving Zoey loves

Uncle Curtis holding little Zoey!

daddy taking her down to the nursery!

in the warmer

One happy family!