Blessings

     I have had a really hard week this week.  I have been thinking a lot about the blessings I do have in my life these last two days.  So yes I'm counting my many blessings and naming them one by one.

• My first blessing is my family.  I have had a tough long months behind me and they have been here for me.  My mom spent the week with me after my Lexy died and made me feel like her little precious baby girl by spending time with me.  My dad has so much strength in him I will always remember the comfort that came over me when he hugged me at my daughters funeral and also all his hugs.  My dad gives one of the best hugs.  My husband Brandon I keep telling everyone he is my ROCK.  Brandon is always here for me even when I'm being a little stubborn and I just want to sit at home and do nothing he always gets me to laugh when I'm like that.  But not only that he is my best friend.  My sister Laura she is my best friend she lets me cry on her shoulder when I'm feeling sad also she makes me feel very special as her sister.  I love her little family her husband Kelly is a very nice guy and also gives out some good hugs when I need them.  Laura's daughter Samantha she is my baby sister I never got I always asked for one but I never got one.  So my Samantha is my little sister.  Samantha is full of so much life and beauty that she amazes me how precious of a girl she is.  My sisters little baby is a great comfort to me she cuddles now and I love it so much.  It is always fun to get to spend time with my little niece.  My brothers what can I say they are all amazing.  They are all big tender hearts underneath.  I love just going up to my parents house and having three of them live at home it is always good times to be had with them.  My in-laws are amazing they are always fun to be around.
• Lexy! yes Lexy gets her own separate blessing.  Lexy is my angel.  Lexy has always watched out over me and than I got the chance to meet my angel who has been watching out for me.  It is a wonderful thing to be the mother of my angel.  I saw her I kissed her I held her.  I got to see the beauty of my little angel.  Lexy is a great comfort to me I still feel her love all around me and her putting her arms around me when I'm sad and just holding me knowing that I do feel the pain for her.
• Friends,  I'm so grateful to have friends that give me courage and laughter.  They are pretty much A Mazing.  They know who they are and there are to many to name.
• Strength,  Just the good old personal strength that you really don't know that you have until you need to use it.  The strength of me just getting up for the day and being able to carry on through out the day.
• Tears, funny one to put after strength.  Tears to me is away of cleaning emotions.  Crying helps me feel better especially when I haven't had a good cry in a couple of days.  There is something about crying you know after you are done crying that it will be okay for a little while.
• the SAVIOR,  He does know my pain he felt it when He was praying in Gethsemane.  He knows my heartache and has given me the strength to carry on.  He knows me and for that I'm very grateful for.
• Heavenly Father,  He knows me and knows what I can handle.   He may not explain His reasoning to me right now but He does have a plan for us.  I trust in His plan.  He wants Brandon, Lexy, and I to be a family again so He is watching over us.  and like any Father I can turn to Him and just bare my soul out to Him and He does comfort me after all the tears have come.
• My young woman leaders.  Yes, I know that I'm not in young womens anymore.  But they are still such a blessing to me.  Everything that they taught me has always been with me.  For them still being there for me at my Wedding, at the hospital, at my daughters funeral.  They are truly wonderful women and I still love them all so much.  They are like my moms and they still give me the strength and comfort.

As for now I'm going to go carry on with my life and remember all the many blessings that I do have in my life.

Day 25

Day 25: What Would I Find In My Bag

Currently I carry around two bags….. A work bag and a camera bag…..  Let us explore the bag of my work bag.  I’m a very simple when it comes to work I take a TV series on DVD I also take a movie in case I get bored with the TV show.  I also take a laptop and that is why all my blogs happen at night.  So due to the computer you will find a computer cord also you will find my cell phone charger I use my phone to get access to the internet.  You will also find a pen and whatever book I’m currently reading.  But for right now I don’t have a book in there because I’m so busy being creative.  I also carry around a notebook so I can brainstorm for blogs and what not.  Also the best part you will sometimes find snacks in my bag and you will always find the MORMON coffee Mtn. Dew.  Little things like that are in my work bag.  Now the other bag I currently carry around everywhere I go is my Camera bag why you ask??  Because it truly is a dream come true to have a DSLR camera.  I’m still learning so I take pictures just to see how I can play with my camera.  You would also find all the cords I need for the camera.  You would also find the instructional DVD and the manual guide.  Yep that is what I carry around mostly in my bags.  I wish that I was a little more girly and I could say makeup, and my whole tiny world but that is not me.

2010

It is the time of year to reflect back on the year and remember all things that had happened over the last year.

Last year on New Years Eve I found out I was going to be having a baby all my dreams of becoming a mommy were coming true.  I told my family on my birthday that we were expecting a little baby soon.  I than became one sick mommy.  My body wasn't liking anything that I ate except the tiny little oranges.  That is what I lived off of for the next couple of months.  I had to go in to get fluids pumped into me because I couldn't even drink water.  But in April our lives were uplifted and I didn't care how sick I was all along my pregnancy because I knew my baby was healthy and I made it through the first trimester.  We also found out in April that we were going to be having a baby girl from that point on we debated between two names Lexy and Lily.  In July a month before our daughter came we got the baby bump pictures.  I never knew how much these pictures were going to mean to me.  In August we were ready for our little girl to come we had the
nursery done just for her.  Dragonflies, Butterflies, Ladybugs and Flowers.  We were so excited to meet our little girl Lexy or Lily.  Time sat still until August 23,2010 we met our little girl Lexy De'anna Waite she was so special that Heavenly Father wanted her to be back with Him.  Lexy didn't even get a breath of fresh air which I would of given anything in the world for her to have one.   So since August what have I been doing my daily living.  Getting up in the morning trying to get ready for the day.  September, October, November came and than in December our family got another hit to my mending heart.  My brother lost his baby Ian.  Lexy and Ian are buried right along each other.  I think my little girl really needed to be up there for when our Little Ian had to come to be with Heavenly Father.  So for this year we are a little heartbroken family.  Now let me tell you the joys of my year.

I got to feel my little girl squirm, kick, and have the hiccups.  I got to hear the heartbeat of my little girl.  I got to see her in my womb and those pictures are great to have because I didn't share them to the world on Facebook I kept them for only our families to see.  I got to see how beautiful our daughter is and we got to spend two wonderful days with her.  I have tons of pictures of her that I just love.  Because of her I have started to begin my dream of becoming a photographer.  I always thought it would be something fun to do.  But when the lovely lady named Heather came to the Hospital to take pictures of our little family.  I knew that is what I wanted to do and would love to do.  Family is so important and this would keep joy and remembrance to other families that have lost their little babies.

New Years Resolutions
I’m going to reinvent my photography blog.  I’m going to try to make an assignment for each day of the week.  I think I will start on January 3.  Well I thought I would blog about it on this one so that everyone will know of the change to come on my photography blog waitephotography.blogspot.com 

So the biggest new years Resolution is to be able to go to the New York Art Institute it is a online school for photography.  I also would like to start being a little more crafty in my life.

Last year my New Years resolution was to be a great mommy and I kept my resolution and I'm still keeping it as my number one priority on all my New Years resolutions.

let us welcome in the New Year 2011!!!

Happy New Year!!!

 P.S.

I believe there are angels all around us and today when we came home from work we saw this:

  (I know that our little neighbor kids may have done this but we didn't see them when we went to work so I believe that an angel really was here last night either it be a little kid or a real angel)  

 

Christmas 2010

missing our little Angel but lucky enough we know that she gets to celebrate CHRISTmas with our Savior.  But in memory of her being in our family we still got her an ornament and it has been a comfort seeing her ornament on the tree.

the other great thing about Christmas is seeing how disappointed that Santa didn't come.  Brandon was telling me all month long that he wanted two video games for his PS2 I told him he would have to wait if Santa will come or not.  Brandon first opened all the gifts from me. than he got to see that Santa really did come...

he got the two games he asked for... 

What did Santa bring me...

a computer and my new found toy a Nikon D3000 I love it.  I also got some little things that I have been wanting.  What did we do with the rest of the day???

Food, Video Games, Toys, Cards, Family what a great day it was.

Christmas Traditions

What Christmas Traditions do you have as a family???

Our little family of Brandon and I we go look at lights on Christmas Eve to start off the festivities.  We wake up and have our little Christmas.  Black Friday is the day we go and buy our DVD's for the year the best day to get deals.  If you know us you know that we have a BIG BIG DVD collection.  We wrap the DVD's and put them under the tree and wait for Christmas morning to come.  After we get done unwrapping our gifts we get ready for the feast that is about to happen at my parents house.  My dad makes the BEST Christmas morning breakfast.  When I was little we would look forward to this breakfast all year because this is when dad makes his Omelets that are to die for.  My mom would set the table and we would all sit around the table and talk.  The best thing about the omelets were that they were made how we would like them.  When we sat down at the table we would find our new Christmas tree ornament.  So after we go and feast and be with my family.  We go over to Brandon's families home and celebrate with them.  Mostly Brandon, his sister and her husband and his dad play Pinochle while his mom and I talk and play with the little kids.  It is a wonderful day to take naps so once we get home we take a good nap.  After we wake up we will go back up to my parents house to watch the Forgotten Carols.  and of course throughout the day we remember the reason we celebrate this season for the birth of our Savior   

Are You Ready???

SANTA'S COMING!!!!

Have you been able to get ready for Santa yet?  Me let me think Santa is coming to our house... I think we have been good this year?


But the best part of the season is to celebrate the life of our Savior!!!  So let us think of our Savior this year as we come close to CHRISTmas.

P.S.
This is the Christmas Miracle picture this year because of this...

the news story here... it was a sad day :( 

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!

Day 24

Day 24-A letter to your parents:

repeat 

Guess what I'm cooking tonight

OREO COOKIE BALLS Cook time:
Prep time:	1 Hr		Serves:	24-36

Ingredients

- 1-18oz. pkg oreo cookies (regular size, 3 rows of cookies) - 1-8oz. pkg cream cheese-block

- 4 oz white chocolate almond bark

Directions

1.   Add oreos to food processor and blend until fine.
2.   Add cream cheese to oreo crumbs and blend until dough-like.
3.   Chill mixture for 15 minutes then roll into bite-size balls. Chill balls for 15 minutes.
4.   Melt almond bark in microwave according to package directions. Dip chilled oreo balls in melted chocolate using fork so chocolate can "drip off". Set covered cookie balls onto waxed paper and let set aprox. 30 minutes. If using sprinkles or decorative sugars do so before chocolate sets. I usually do a dozen at a time sprinkling after each dozen.

Don't they look yummy. I'm really excited to try them.  So far I have the dough cookie/cream cheese mixture is chilling in the fridge.


 also I'm going to make this also...

MONKEY BREAD

Cook time:	25 Min		Difficulty:	EASY
Prep time:	10 Min		Serves:	4

Ingredients

- 2 can(s) pillsbury biscuits - 1 c sugar - 1/2 Tbsp cinnamon

- 1/2 stk butter - 1/2 c brown sugar

Directions

1.   Preheat oven to 350 degrees.
2.   Cut each biscuit into quarters and shake in a baggy with the cinnamon and sugar mixture.
3.   Once each piece is covered, place into an ungreased bundt pan.
4.   Melt butter and mix with brown sugar.
5.   Pour evenly over bread mixture and cook for 25 minutes or until golden brown. Ready to serve!

I'm just going to add caramel Hershey kisses in some of them as a surprise.

Why am I making all these treats.  We are inviting Becca and Adam over for a little Christmas party we are going to play Bingo and win prizes.  It is a little Christmas party.

Little toes and LIttle fingers

My nephew just came to this world to receive a body...

he was premature by 15 weeks and he was with us for a day.

He stuck in there and fought...

Heavenly Father just needed him back...

I also think Lexy wanted a cousin with her

up in Heaven so that they could play together.

Little Fingers...

Little toes...

He has the Heaps toe that only the girls get but I think it is because he was so special.






and my handsome little nephew will always be with us.  Lexy you take care of him.  Love your Aunt and Uncle we love you.

Prayers are needed

My brother Kevin and his girlfriend Jennifer need prayers.  Their little boy was born on December 12 he was only 25 weeks along in his mommy so 15 weeks early.  So please prayer for my nephew and his parents.

Day 23

Day 23-Something you crave for a lot:

I would have to say my husband... because I love spending time with him he makes me laugh and have a good time and I love him for it.  I love all the adventures we go on it just makes life better.   

but besides him I crave...

what can I say I'm a girl I love chocolate.  I love strawberries covered in chocolate.  When I was pregnant I couldn't eat a lot of chocolate it gave me heartburn so I have found again the love of chocolate.  Ask the hubby I crave chocolate most of the time now.

 

Day 22

Day 22-What makes you different from everyone else:

good question i could come up with a lot of things that make me different from everyone else.  like i'm an ORIGINAL Jessica Heaps Waite you are never going to find another one just like me.  but everyone knows that we are all unique.  so what makes me different from everyone else.  i have changed a lot lately due to the loss of my daughter and the stress of my landlord saying that i'm not depressed daily which is one big joke (like i have forgotten the loss of my daughter in less time than i had with her oh well this blog is not about this).  i'm different because i still BELIEVE in SANTA yes i just said that.  I believe the story of SANTA because this is what helped me grow to believe that other things exist like faith, charity, and hope.  Of course it has had a great impact on me gaining a testimony of our SAVIOR.  our SAVIOR has given the greatest gift in the world.  He has given us the chance to be with our families for all eternity.  so yes i am 23 going on 24 a week after CHRISTmas and i still BELIEVE.

I BELIEVE IN SANTA CLAUSE, AND FATHER CHRISTMAS!!

Day 21

Day 21-A picture of something that makes you happy:

 

 

 

and of course this one...

 

(good times to be had)

Day 20

Day 20-Someone you see yourself marrying or being with in the future:

Brandon Waite (my hot hubby)

  

      I think I will stay with this guy for all eternity I'm pretty fond of him.  I love him so much!!!

Day 19

Day 19-Nicknames you have and why you have them:

• Jessa- My mom calls me that I never realized it until I met someone in highschool with the name of Jessa and I would respond this girl was on color guard with me that is why I would respond.
• Bug- given to me by older brother Jared.
• Smeshmica- given to me by sister Laura.
• and than hear is the embarrassing one CaCa my niece couldn't say my name when she was younger so this is the name I got from my nieces and nephews aunt CaCa needless to say they have stopped calling me it.  Which I really don't mind because I really do like my name Jessica.
• oh yeah I also forgot what my friends call me they call me this because I was the only one married at the time and every Sunday night before friends went on a mission, got married we would do a game night.  Thank you Erica my daughter for reminding me of this it makes my name more official now because I forget things also.  The name is mom.

     

Christmas Time

   As we head into the Christmas Season we should also remember that this is the time of year to celebrate the birth of our Savior.  I'm so grateful for our Savior and everything that he has done for us.  I love this time of year being able to snuggle under a blanket drink hot chocolate and watch the millions of Christmas movies.  But my favorite thing to do is to remember the Savior. 

I don't know how this Christmas will go I cried last year because all I wanted for Christmas was to be pregnant and I found out that I was a week later on my birthday.  I should of had a baby this year.  I did cry a little when I set up the tree this year and we moved everything that couldn't fit into our living room in the second bedroom.  I didn't think I was going have to use that room for storage I thought I was going to be using it to be cuddling a baby.  I got Lexy a ornament for our Christmas tree.  It is a little angel that is holding a heart.  It stands out because we decorate our tree with blue and silver ornaments with snowflakes and candy canes.  I just wish that our little girl was here to enjoy the Christmas lights along with me.  Sorry for being a downer...

I do have to say this I'm a little excited for Christmas morning this year I'm getting two things that I have wished for awhile now.

I hope that this Christmas Season will be a good one and that we will feel the love of our Savior while we remember everything He has done for us.

Day 18

Day 18-Plans/dreams/goals you have:

Plans:

• my plans for the next year are to go to the New York photography school.  (it is a online school)
• my plans for the next 2 years is become amazing at photography so that I can start a business up.
• my plans for the next 5 years i hope to become a mommy.  i know i'm already a mommy to Lexy but i want to have some children to raise.
• my plans for the next 50 years to live laugh love...

Dreams:

• to have children to raise.
• have an awesome photography buisness

Goals:

• short term goals
• is to accomplish all my plans

In honor of my 100th post

100 THINGS I'M GRATEFUL FOR:

1. BRANDON- must i need to explain he is my rock.  he is the love of my life and i'm so grateful for him and everything he has done for me.
2. THE SAVIOR- He is also another rock in my life.  without Him we wouldn't have the chance to have an eternal family. 
3. LEXY DE'ANNA WAITE- she has blessed our lives in so many ways.
4. FAMILY
5. FRIENDS
6. SCRIPTURES
7. EDUCATION
8. OUR HOME
9. JOBS
10. MUSIC
11. GAME NIGHTS
12. THANKSGIVING
13. BLOGGING
14. FACEBOOK
15. NIECES AND NEPHEWS
16. CAMERAS
17. PICTURES
18. BYU BASKETBALL
19. CHOCOLATE
20. well you get the point i could go on forever but i don't really want to...

Well I'm glad I have finally made it to the great 100 post hopefully I can continue on...

Day 17

Day 17-Someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why:

who I would like to switch lives with for one day...

I would have to say...

my mom!!!

 why my mom because she is the most amazing mom I could ask for.  my mom has done so much in her life not only raising 7 children, but being a great daughter, sister, wife, and mother.  My mom moved from England when she was young to America and married my dad and raised her family.  My mom wasn't able to just go up to the street to see her mom when she needed a good cry or some advice on how to take care of a baby.  My mom did get the phone calls to her sweet dear mum and she also got to go visit her mum every couple of years.  My mom also was a stay at home mom until I started going to school and now my mom is a manager for two different departments in the company she works for.  My mom is also so very strong my mom has been living with cancer for the last couple of years.  You would never know that if you looked at her because she is so positive and looks so healthy.  My mom is also an amazing cook.  I love her so much and I would just love to see how she spends a day at a time.                                                                            

Day 16

Day 16-Another picture of yourself:
so i thought it would be creative to take a picture of me blogging a photo of myself.